Stergo @ Pixabay
Jealousy, the green-eyed monster
Oozing up from my battered soul
Bruised by lack, insecurity
Fearing not being good enough
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Compliments never satisfied
Achievements gradually faded
Nothing silenced the emptiness
Shouting you are a nobody
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Seeking validation, esteem
I chased the American dream
Accumulating possessions
Knowledge, college degrees, careers
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Husband’s promotions, gross income
Children’s grades, achievements, clothing
Family, vacations, hobbies
Overtime grew unfulfilling
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Despair, hopelessness, depression
My daily walking companions
Tossing and turning all night long
Grinding teeth, terrifying dreams
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Like Solomon I recognized
All was a pursuit of the wind
No satisfaction, just torment
Futility under the sun
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Thankfully, Papa rescued me
Welcomed this lost prodigal home
Captivated my heart with love
Gently assured me I was safe
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Papa’s unconditional love
Shelter on my healing journey
Silencing demons of my past
Defanged, no longer poisonous
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Exquisite love of my Savior
Teaches me mercy, forgiveness
Purpose, legacy, destiny
At long last free to dream again
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