Are you patient?
How long will you wait for an answer before taking matters into your hands?
Do you have a gloomy or sunny disposition during the transition from what was to what will be?
Generally I am patient. Willingly and easily delaying gratification. It is my thought life that needs work.
On the outside I may appear calm and collected. My downfall is ceaseless self-talk. Although this has improved over the years, with each transition I revert to old toxic thinking patterns.
Obsessing over how much longer. Am I doing what I need to do to hasten, not delay the transition. When? When? When?
Once again I find myself in transition. But unlike past transitions, this one is easier. I am finally learning how to enjoy the transition.
What have I learned to make this transition easier?
- Pray more.
- Meditate on what is “honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think of things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”
- Listen to recorded live worship music.
- More intentional about living in the present. Grateful for all I have today while eagerly anticipating the goodness tomorrow will bring.
I must confess some days are easier, and I am more successful. Even so, my mind no longer is the black hole it once was. I know I am not powerless to control my thought life because I unequivocally believe this promise of God.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity— of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear. But He has given us a spirit of power AND of love AND of calm AND well-balanced mind AND discipline AND self-control.
Let your mind know who’s the boss. It changes EVERYTHING!
Thanks for listening to my voice! Feel free to like and share it with your friends.
Have a great day! Rita
Be a VOICE in the deafening sound of sameness!
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Thanks for your post! I recently heard a spiritual speaker state there’s no difference between inner and outer. That has helped me “catch” and give to God some of my “wrongful” thinking. I think its good to note, that this is not in a shameful “I’m bad for thinking this” way. But in a loving “ahh there’s a thought I’d like to get rid of, please help me God” kind of way. I love being a seeker of truth!
I am increasingly more aware of how truly loving and good He is. Never cruel and judgmental as the “religious” would have you believe. His Truth never damages or harms. It does truly set you free. Have a wonderful day my fellow seeker of His Truth!